I haven't used this blogger thing in a year, or maybe more. I can't remember my last post, I think it had something to do with Soy Candles. Yes, I am going to capitalize Soy Candles. They were important to me at the time. They represented something new, somehow they meant possibility. But anyway, really, they're just candles. They didn't change my life.
"Soy Candle-era Heather" was the start of the 9 months of not working a regular job, no 9 to 5, no responsibility. It was my make it or break it time. Well, I didn't make it. I may have crushed it a little, but I didn't exactly break it either. I learned a lot about myself. Most of it good, I am still sorting through the bad.
I like work. I like working a schedule for someone else. I like having that responsibility to keep me grounded. It's good to change out of your comfy clothes once in a while and put on makeup for the world. Its good to make small talk with new people. It's good to know which roads are undergoing construction and where the best place is for coffee in a new part of town.
When I wasn't working for someone else, I realized I missed it.
I realized I have really high energy days where I work morning until nightfall and these are alternated on both sides by days where I just want to eat bread and play video games. It's a balance. This is not good when you are trying to fill your non-working days with endless productiveness. Being at home all day meant there were too many weeks when I didn't wash my hair or had vodka for breakfast. Both are fun once in a while but really nothing that should be practiced on a regular basis. And I was practicing both, let's just say,
quite often. I now refer to that 9 months of not working as "the year of excess".
Anyway, why am I writing this? I don't know. It's what I thought about when I sat down to make a new blog post.
I plan to blog regularly. For me. To keep a running total of everything I do, everything I've done, to share myself with friends and family who I do not see enough.
I'll keep doing it as long as it's fun and/or therapeutic. If you like it, read it. If you don't, don't.